Visual Addiction

I will Trust You...?

2012-01-26T13:32:00.000+14:00

In 10 days, I'll be on a plane headed to my most beloved nation, South Africa. I can not say these past several months preparing for it has been easy. It has been the hardest trip to prepare for. Last night the Lord reminded me of what I told Him the first day we had the meeting for SA. I remember hearing myself say, "lord if u will let me go, I will go. Even if you provide at the last min. I will trust you." Oh how easy it was for me to say it, but how hard it was for me to actually act upon it.

For some strange reason, when remembering that, it gave me comfort. Knowing that, He IS my provider. No matter how crazy this trip may sound. That I would comment to a 9 day missions trip, a month AFTER I got back from YWAM. I understand, it seems totally crazy that I would jump into something that fast, and your prob. right. I shouldn't have done it. But when I asked Abba if I could go and He said yes, there was no doubt in my mind that He wouldn't provide.

I may have doubted these 3 months that he would get me there, and I am sorry for that. But today is a new day, and I believe what He has told me everyday since then,"Trust in me, and I will provide," is true. I only have 300 dollars, and I need 2,000 more. In less than 10 day's I believe with faith in my heart that He will make it happen. He has proven to me, that nothing is impossible. So, as you read this, pray for me, that I keep on trusting in Him.

And if you will like to donate any kind of amount towards my trip:

http://www.crccsc.org/giving

So that your donation will be accurately posted, be sure and note: Hannah Nett- South Africa

(Matthew 6:26)

Leaving Soon For Africa

2012-01-12T06:27:00.000+14:00

In 24 days, I'm leaving for South Africa and to be honest I only have 200 dollars saved up for the trip. I know the Lord wants me to go, and He has told me constantly that he will provide the money for me. So I am stepping out in faith that he will keep his promise.

I work part time at Loft but its not enough money for me to get to Africa, so I started brain storming of what i could do on the side to raise the amount I need. Just this past Christmas, I got a new camera, so I am starting up my photography again. So if anyone is needing some, Senior photos, family, photos, pet photos. Anything!! Email me at: littlebluebird7@gmail.com

All of the money I will get, will go all towards my South Africa trip.

The total cost for the trip is 2,305 dollars. I'm leaving in 24 days. Will be there for 9 days and I know the lord will take me there. Nothing is impossible through Him.

Here is a link to my Fan Page on fb of some of my Photography work, to give you an idea of what I do.
http://www.facebook.com/pages/Visual-Addiction/152638891455620

South Africa

2011-12-12T18:10:00.001-10:00

Dear Friends,

First, thank you all for your support during my YWAMtraining and outreach to Asia and N.K. Serving the people of Asia and sharing the loveof the Father was such an amazing experience. God plainly showed me how much He loves every culture. Every life is precious to Him. Because of this, proclaiming the goodness andlove of God to the nations has become my heartbeat. I’m not sure yet of all the details, but Ibelieve the Lord is calling me to serve as a missionary at some point in myfuture.

When I returned home after YWAM, I felt like my next tripwould be to Africa because of the deep love that has grown in my heart for thatnation. After praying about it, I feltlike the Lord spoke very strongly to me that I would have the opportunity togo.

Well, it happened very fast! My church, Crossroads Community Church (soon to be “City Church”), istaking a team to South Africa in February and I believe I’m supposed to go. We will be in a small town called White Riverworking with a YWAM missionary named Rich Hodge. He works with orphans affected by the AIDScrisis and with troubled teens. Our goalis to build relationships with the people there and share the love of God withthe children by playing, feeding and spending time with them. I am very excited to love on them the way theLord loves on me. The dates for our tripare February 4^th to the 13^th.

So here I am now asking all of you to pray for me and see ifthe Lord would have you support me. Iknow it’s the worst time to ask for a donation, since Christmas is just aroundthe corner and money is tight, but I am simply following God and obeyinghim.

My needs are as follows:

· $500 by December 31^st which is myfirst installment of payments

· $1000 by January 15th, second installment

· $1000 balance before I leave on my trip

I am working full-time right now at Loft and hope to be ableto replace my camera that broke in N.K. with the money I am earning.

Here is how you can donate:

Personal check payable to CrossRoads CommunityChurch with “Hannah Nett – South Africa” on the memo line.

Mail to:

CrossRoads Community Church

Attn: Courtney Cline, Missions

416 Holland Road

Simpsonville, SC 29681

· Online: http://www.crccsc.org/giving,again making the notation, “Hannah Nett – South Africa”

Thank you so much for your prayers and support. I appreciate you so much!

Godbless,

Hannah

A New Heart for A New Nation

2011-09-26T15:02:00.000-10:00

As most of you know I'm back home now. It's been 3 days since I've been back, and adjusting to the time differences here and just adjusting back to my normal life is weird but I'm glad to be back. I didn't think I would be, because I wanted to stay in Kona, Hawaii. But I realized once I got home, where my heart really wanted to be.

I can't stop thinking about East Asia. The more I talk about it. The more I miss that place. Someone asked me the other day why I missed Asia. so much and I told her, "I have no idea!" But I came to the conclusion today, that I may have hated living in the city and in the busy atmosphere but I love the people and what the father is doing there.

I have no idea whats my next step in life, but I do know I'll be home for a while, doing things such as learning how to cook. Spend time with my mentors, get a job, a car, and save money for a new camera. I don't know what life holds after all those things, are accomplished but I hope and desire to return back to Asia. Before I came back Home I kept thinking about doing the track but just never felt peace about it, but I did feel peace that the lord was going to show me my next step in life when I get back home. And I think He already did. I can't stop thinking about Asia. : ]

It amazes that though I have a desire to go back to Asia I don't know when, how, or what I'd be doing if I went back. But I'm not worried about it. I just got back home and I'm going to enjoy every moment of every day and not look to the future and worry of things that do not need to be worried about. I know that when the time comes to "worry" about those things, God will show me.

I love talking about everything I experienced so if you have any questions, please let me know!

My Life is Forever Changed

2011-09-19T20:51:00.000-11:00

For 3 months I traveled with 3 other people for 3 months through out East Asia, including N.K. I'm here now back in Kona, Hawaii doing our debrief. Since last Friday I've been deep in thought about everything I experienced. Its hard to put in words what I feel, when I don't even know myself what I'm really feeling. But I do know this, God is Love and if God is love, then love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, and always preserves. That is what God did through out my life and the people around me during my dts outreach.

Before we left for our outreach I never cared about going to East Asia. Now I can't wait to go back. :] I am so in love with Asia! I have experienced God's love in that place so much, that at times it was very overwhelming. I have so much respect for them as well, because they choose to follow God even when it means putting their life on the line. Even when we talked to the college students about Him they didn't quit understand it, but they were hungry and willing to be open to the idea of a God, that so loved the world He gave his only son to die on the cross. That we may live forever with our Father in heaven.

You sometimes have this idea that your out to change the world but most of the time the world ends up changing you. That's what happened on my outreach.

Good Bye Room 90

2011-06-26T16:51:00.000-11:00

Since this morning, my roommate and I have been packing, cleaning, and storing our items. I look around the room, clean as can be, and more than anything I'm going to miss room 90. Almost all my sisters are gone, and words cannot express how much I miss them. I miss there laughter, there silly voices, there hugs, and smiles. Every time I look at there beds, I image them sitting or laying there smiling. When I look out the window I thank the Lord every time for putting me in room 90. We had such fun times in here, but more than anything our main subject was pointed to God. He is everywhere in room 90. He blessed us with His grace, and peace but most of all His presences. Seeing everything packed and ready to go, makes me wish I didn't have to leave this room. But I am very honored to be the last person leaving here. Just as the roommates before us prayed over this room, we have done the same, and everyday I will continue to bless this room until I leave.

My roommates and I never had conflict between each other. Not one fight, just love. And that is by the grace of God that we were able to love each other and not fight. Thank you God for your love, and that you put a desire in the roommates before us, to pray over this room. You sure do listen to our prayers :)

5 days left!!

2011-06-24T11:40:00.000-11:00

I just came back from my last class that we will be having here. I'm not sad at all that we are all splitting up. I'm so excited to head out and see what the Lord has in store for me and what I can give back to Him. I am bit nervous so please keep me in your prayers.

I also want you guys to know, that today I am putting all the stuff that I'm not bring on outreach into storage. Such as my phone and laptop. So if you call me or text me just know I'm not ignoring you, just on the other side of the world. :) I will causally be making posts on here when I can, and my leader said I can use her laptop when I want to talk to people back home. This is my choice to not bring my laptop, because I want my full attention to be on my surroundings, and focus my attention on God, and His goodness.

I also would like to share with you guys what the Lord has been tugging on my heart. As most of yall know. I took this dts because of the Around the World Track- http://www.photogenx.net/index.php?option=com_content&view=article&id=104:around-the-world-track-with-photogenx&catid=45:photogenx-training&Itemid=94 and the Lord has brought it to my attention again, that He wants me to do this. At the time I didn't want to, cause I wanted to do something different. But the Lord has given me the desire to pursue this again. So my heart is on fire for this!

Through out my outreach I will be praying about it and when I come back home I will have already made a decision. So please be praying for me, that I hear the Lord's voice clearly and if God wants me to go, that He will provide the money. If I go on the track, I will leave once again in January 2012 and be gone for a year. I am so excited at what the Lord is going to use me in. I feel at though I have nothing to give, but I have such a heart for the injustice of sex slavery, women and children, that I'm willing to try to do something.

Again thank you all so much for your prayers and support. Don't ever stop praying and don't forget I still need 700 dollars!

I love you all! God bless

I Got My Money

2011-06-21T13:10:00.000-11:00

Yesterday my school leader comes up to me and says, "Hannah, your name is erased off the board." My eyes grew to the size of golf balls and my voice turned into a really high pitched voice, "really?! I got all my money??" Sharee smiled as she nodded her head in agreement. "How? Who was it from?" And all sharee would say was that it came out of the donation box through YWAM. I knew my money was going to come in, I just didn't realize it was going to come in so soon! I smiled so big and looked up to the sky knowing God was smiling right down at me.

I can't believe it, Im really going! I finally get to be excited and start packing! Also I got a free backpack that I needed for my luggage! its in such great shape! The Lord really does keep his promises, even if its at the last min. :) So in 8 days at 5 in the morning Im leaving for outreach! Thank you all for helping me this far, I wouldn't be able to do if it wasn't for all of y'all encouraging me along the way and supporting me. I love you guys!

btw please continue to be praying for me because even though I can go on outreach now, I still need 700 more dollars.

Im Loven My New Home

2011-06-18T20:33:00.000-11:00

In less than 2 weeks I'm leaving for outreach and today it has finally hit me that I'm going to miss the YWAM base in Kona. I love this place so much, it really feels like home to me. Yea I say I miss home, but honestly I'm starting to really like this place. Ive never been in an environment were everyone is so very passionate for God. Where everyone doesn't judge you, but simply love you. God is everywhere on this campus, even on the island. I've gotten so close to the people who live on this island as well. I'm starting to feel like this is my new home. I know for my family back home, this will make you guys sad. But for me its so comforting to feel belonged here, instead of feeling restless.

So on that note, I'm going to miss Hawaii, but I'm SO excited for outreach. :) I can't wait to go and live in another dif. culture for 2 months. By the way, money has come in for me! I only need 400 more dollars to actually be able to go, but all together I need 1,000 dollars more! So, as I always say, keep praying!

I would also like to say thank you so much, for everyone who has supported me, prayed for me, or just loved on me before and while my time here. You all have encouraged me so much, words cannot express it. Its so nice to know there are people in the world besides my legit family that really care about me.

And the most important one I want to Thank is Abba. If it wasn't for Him I wouldn't be here at YWAM, and I wouldn't be the person I am now. Thank you God so much for everything. You mean the world to me. <3

Tonight Changed My Life.

2011-06-14T21:20:00.000-11:00

Tonight I was in the town passing free water bottles and snacks to the homeless. Talking to my friend Steven when I meant this girl named Nature, and for the past 2 hours she shared with me parts of her life story, her dreams and desires, and her relationship with Abba. She absolutely amazed me. I was just sitting in the dirt below her, looking up at this free spirited women with so much joy and strength in her eyes. She is homeless and pregnant, and yet everyday she trusts God.

When she told me they took her first baby girl away from her because she didn't have the stuff to provide for her. I was at the blink of tears. She told me she knew she couldn't keep her, and so she was going to give the child away, but once she looked into those pretty little eyes. She wanted to keep her and tried to keep her. But they took her away from her. I remember she just sat there quit for a while looking into space with her eyes watering. I wanted to hug her so bad. And then she said, " it still makes me tear up sometimes."

Now she is two months pregnant, and shes living on the streets. She is trying to stop smoking because of her baby. She knows its not healthy and I'm so proud of her. She has such big Dreams. She told me if she could have a house, it would have solar panels on the roof, and glass windows, and other stuff I don't remember much anymore. She even wants to buy a bus with rainbows painted on the side. And she wants to grow a garden. And she wants her son to listen to good christian music instead of this rap stuff. I know most of you guys are thinking, well how do you know she isn't just making this stuff up? I know because my spirit was telling me she was telling the truth. You could just tell, when you looked at her, that what you were seeing and hearing was the real her.

I couldn't wait to get the chance to pray for her, so when she asked for me to pray for her hands, I gladly said yes! After I prayed for her she totally got a word for me! She said she saw a angel beside us and it was pointing to a key whole which was me or it was on me. And she said she got the verse, "seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you." I was totally shocked. Here was this women who was homeless and was pregnant and was prophesying over me! Not only that, but, that same verse that she spoke over me, it has been the same verse tons of people have gotten for me at YWAM!

I am still blown away by such strength she has. No matter how much worse it gets in her life, she has such joy in her to share about the good things the Lord has done in her life. I told her I would pray for her dreams to happen. So I ask, please, pray for her. If I had the money I would buy her a bus, a house with solar panels and a beautiful garden! But I know God has the money, so just pray that God will provide for her.

Hopefully tomorrow I get to go downtown and hang out with her some more. :) So wish me luck!

My Life Is In Your Hands

2011-06-02T19:54:00.000-11:00

When you read this I want to encourage you guys to not stop praying for me! Even though this day is about to end, when you wake up you can still donate money for my outreach! Please pray and ask God if He wants you to give. Even though this day is about to end, I'm still at peace even when I don't have my outreach money.

I can honestly say I don't want to leave here. YWAM has been changing my life. I feel like a totally different person then when I first got here. I feel more confident, and strong in faith, and more alive then ever! My relationship with God is so different. I feel so much closer to him, and I feel so free from so many burdens I carried with me when I got here. I am so thankful for everything the Lord did through me these past 2 and half months. Even though I am changed, the Lord still has more to give me. So I ask you to help me, so that I may stay here and finish my dts.

I also actually don't have 900 dollars, I have 700 and that's it. I need 2,400 dollars more. I need your help.
Send this out to everyone you know...my life is your hands. :)

If you want to donate hers how:

Tax-deductible donations through my church at www.crccsc.org

From this screen, click “enter” and go to the upper right hand side of the page and click on “resources” and “online giving.” After clicking on “Click here to give online” the website will direct you to a window where you can quickly enter your personal information if it’s your first time giving. After that, just make sure to designate my name in the drop down box so that your funds will go to me.

Update On Money

2011-06-02T11:38:00.000-11:00

Hey you guys!!
I'm sorry to leave you all hanging! I just got out of my 4 hour lecture class and I finally have time to give you an update!

After lunch I received many emails of donations and it got me really excited!! Thank you SO much for helping out! It looks like I have 900 dollars so far, so that means I need 2,300 by tonight!!! ahhh! I'm finally getting nervous. I really hope I get to go. Keep Praying!! In 10 hours is my deadline!! All I can ask is to pray!!

Love you guys!!

2 Days Left

2011-05-31T11:29:00.000-11:00

Hey you guys!

So I found out I have to raise 3,000 by this Thursday!! If I don't get the money I wont be able to go on outreach and Ill have to come home. I know that God doesn't want me to go home, He made me very clear to me that I wants me to go to East Asia. I also know that is a lot of money, but my leader says since we are going to East Asia, its twice as much money than other places. It seems impossible to raise that much money in less than two days . But when God is in the picture, its never impossible. Just be praying for my team and I, that God will provide and someone or anybody will be willing to help! This is the rest of the money I need for YWAM so I know when I get it I will be so relieved! haha Anyway just be praying!! Thank you so much!!

Hannah <3

Update

2011-05-25T18:28:00.000-11:00

As most of ya'll know I'm at YWAM in Kona Hawaii doing my dts in PhotogenX! I have been here for almost 2 months now! :D I have learned so much being here. The Lord has been opening up my heart to heal me of my past and to capture me in His love :) I have also learned to be thankful in the little things in life! hehe :) for example, AC, hot water, quarters for laundry, food, cleaning supplies, etc. etc...
I have also learned to step out of my comfort zone and do the things I would never do back home. (I'm such a shy little girl back home) Such as, speaking in large groups of people, speaking and praying on stage in class or the prayer room. and speaking to strangers on the island itself. it has been extremely hard for me but the more I face my fears the less it scares me! Which is so exciting for me! Last week and this week I have realized that my whole life I belived in the lies that I am worthless, my voice doesn't matter, I'm stupid. I believed in the lies of self hatred which is not what God thinks of me. I know that I know, I have been healed of that lie, and I'm ready to live with self confidence.
I have so much enjoyed the intimacy I have had with my father since I've been here. My craving for my God has been so overwhelming I cant get enough of Him.I just want more and more of Him and I want to give, everything to Him, and I want to face the enemy in the eye and tell Him to back off cause I'm crashing through with Jesus by my side. haha Anyways my life is changing!
In 5 weeks I'm going to East Asia for 2 and half months!! :D I never thought the Lord was going to take me there but He clearly showed me He wants me to go there and I know He will do something amazing weather its changing my life or the people I'm around, or both! The only thing I need is about 3,000 to 4,000 dollars before I leave on outreach which I know is a lot of money in such a short time but I know God wants me to go, so He will provide. So I'm not here to ask for your money all I ask is that u pray that the lord provides in such a short time :) I know He will. He made it clear enough that He wanted me to go, He wont leave me hanging :)
I love all of you guys! I pray the Lord may bless you just as much as He has blessed me for just being here :)

I Miss Home

2011-04-23T08:53:00.000-11:00

This past week has been extremely hard. I miss my family, my friends. I miss my mommy, sometimes I long to be in my moms arms her holding me, but I cant, and that's hard. I miss my dads laugh, and his silly grin, I miss his hugs. I miss my sister and brother, I just want to be with them and I cant. I miss my dog. I miss my home, my bed. I miss the solitude I could get at home if I wanted it. I miss the food back home. There are so many things I miss and crave for back home. Sometimes I just fall apart. Other times I hold it together and move on through out my day. Most of the time I give it to God, and he gives me peace.

I sometimes wonder how I could possible be a long term missionary if I cant even be away from home for a week! I even had a hard time finding out where im going on my outreach, cause Ive always wanted to go to South Africa idk why but I have, and thats not where Im going. I mean I know thats not my time to go cause the Lord CLEARLY showed me he wanted to take me some where else. Im excited now! but a couple days ago I wasn't. All I could ask is if everyone back home could pray for me. Some days Im ok, like today. But recently Ive just had the hardest time being happy cause I miss my family..SO MUCH! I know the more I struggle being here, I know the more Abba wants me to be here.

So, with that, just be praying :) I love you guys so much! xoxox

"Is that really you God?"

2011-04-21T21:17:00.001-11:00

Last week I learned how to hear the voice of God but also obey it. If you have been keeping up with my other blog post you will know that Sharee my school leader's husband was teaching all of that. But I’m not here to talk about his teaching, I’m here to talk about the book we were required to read this past week. It’s called, "Is that really you God?" written by Loren Cunningham the founder of YWAM.

It started out when he was 26 years old and he got a vision from the Lord. What he saw was a wave of young adults and youth crashing over the land, spreading the gospel. That little vision that God put in his mind was what started it all. The coolest part for me was even though some people around him thought he was crazy he still acted on it. I’ve learned that when you obey God's voice, He’s not going to leave you hanging. He’s going to make a clear path for you, because honestly if you think about it, its God's plan not ours. If God wants it to happen He will make a way, and that’s just what He did for Loren Cunningham.

In the middle of the book the Lord gives him another vision of a white boat but what Cunningham and his wife and everyone that worked with him did was wrong. They started giving their full attention on the boat instead of God. They left God in a corner of a room and but the boat as their prize and idol. When Loren Cunningham and the people around him realized what they have been doing, they wept for days and begged God's forgiveness. God forgave them, but he took the boat away from them as well.

Soon afterwards the lord took them to Kona, were that is when they started the very first YWAM base. Again Cunningham heard God's voice and obeyed it. Even when all that other drama happened in the past, it didn’t stop him. Then at the end of the book the Lord blessed them with another white boat and they called it Anastasis which is the greek word for resurrection. I am amazed at how this one man listened to the voice of God and because of that there are so many YWAM bases all over the world. I am so honored to be part of it all. Just think if we heard the voice the lord and obeyed it what would God do through our lives? That is one thing that has challenged me to this day.

I’ve learned this past week that it’s easy to hear and obey God's voice. We just make it hard. I love how Loren Cunningham puts it, "This is what hearing God's voice is all about...getting to know Him better." That’s so true, the more you listen and obey Him, you get to know Him more! It’s scary and exciting all at the same time, but it’s worth it.

Outreach Time

2011-04-18T12:55:00.001-11:00

This morning, our photogenX team got to find out the six places that are going out for outreach! It was such an exciting time for us. I know for me I had butterflies in my stomach and my hands were all sweaty and I couldn't stop smiling! :) Our leaders were teasing us taking longer than ever to show us the places that would be available for us. But soon, Johnathan turned out the slide show and the 5 places are, Cambodia, South Africa, Japan and Thailand, Philippines, and Mozambique. The first one that popped in my head was and South Africa. I didn't know about the third one so I went off to the prayer room and waited for 45 min. and see what the Lord wanted the third one to me. He told me Cambodia. I did have Japan and Thailand as the third but I kept having the word Cambodia speak over again.

I'm so stoked to find out this Friday were I'm going! I've always wanted to go to South Africa, but I know that if I don't go there I will prob. go there later on in the future. A lot of people are really nervous as to were they are going to go, but I'm at peace. I know where ever I go, that is where the Lord wants me. : ]

As for the money situation, I'm not freaking out about that as well! I know the Lord will provide :) I only need 3,000 dollars left and that's not that much if you think of the fact that I have been blessed with 6,000! Thank you Jesus!! xoxo

Stepping In Faith

2011-04-12T13:47:00.001-11:00

Today was a very good day in letcure class. Christian, Sharee's husband, has been speaking to us about hearing God's voice, and today he talked to us about the ways God speaks to us. Everything he said I already knew because my whole life I was raised learning how to hear God. But what really impacted me the most was the activities we did. The first thing Christian wanted us to do was be alone for 10 min. and ask God what he thinks about us. Ten minutes isn't very long, but if he gave us longer we would start questioning if that was really God, instead of just going with our gut. So this is what I got in 10 minutes:

"To me my child you are beautiful, brilliant, stunning. My child you have a voice that I have given you. Do not be ashamed of it. For I have given it life, to speak of the things of me. I have given you light, that shines so deep within you."

As soon as he called us back, I read what I wrote and the Lord told me Christian was going to ask some people to share. Then I replied to Abba and said, "You want me to say this to the class don't you?" Abba nodded his head very firmly. I made a groaning noise underneath my breath and looked up at the ceiling. I definitely did NOT want to share this with the class, but most of all did not want to speak in front of everyone. Period.

Maybe ten seconds went by and Christian asked if anyone wanted to share. My heart was beating like crazy. I panicked and knew that if I did not raise my hand I would not have the guts to do it later. So, I raised my hand and spoke. As soon as I started speaking, all fear was gone and excitement and confidence were placed inside me. I smiled as I finished it, and the Lord said to me, "See? It wasn't that hard was it? You freaked out when you "jumped off the cliff" (it's a phrase Christian uses with us about speaking in front of people) but once you did, you found out its fun."

Then after that, Christian put us in groups. We all had 30 sec. to get a word from God to give to the one we were praying for. It was a lot of fun! When it was my turn, everyone prayed for 30 sec. and this is what everyone said. Every word is spot on. I love it!

quiet joy, delight between the father and I. A vision of me lying in the green grass with the sun on my face.
me lying in a bed of grass with flowers everywhere and I was linking flowers together in a necklace and that represents me bringing people together.
a vision of me on a cliff with the wind blowing through my hair.
peaceful
strong
freedom
freedom

I loved getting those words! I also got a word from two girls at two dif. times. And the words were both the same with different pictures. The pictures were of me with all the things I held onto from words and ugly things people have said about me in the past. Things I still hold on to and push down, but the Lord spoke to me through them and said while I am here he is going to wash it all away. And I know He's going to do it and that makes me very happy!

Anyway a bunch more happened today that the Lord spoke to me about and the one thing that Christian said to us really stuck to me. It is that what ever the Lord tells you to do, go ahead and do it and don't wait it out because you usually chicken out. And that's what I did. As soon as I heard the Lord speak to me, I did it. And the results were amazing and heartbreaking and all just filled with love.

The one thing I'm realizing while I'm here is that there is a gift the Lord has given me and Satan is trying so hard to push me down to not find out what it is. But I think I know what it is. All my life I've been afraid to speak to a group of people, but lately the Lord has been speaking directly to me about that subject, and I feel like the lord wants to use my voice for His glory. If that's true, then I'm all for it because I know Satan is against it.

BTW here is my address while Im here!

Hannah Nett
Photogenx, 2nd Quarter 2011

University of the Nations
75-5851 Kuakini Hwy. #430
Kailua Kona, HI 96740-2136 USA

My New Home

2011-04-09T15:29:00.001-11:00

Today we went to the beach! We all got in a school bus and drove over there. It took about an hour, but it was worth it! The beach is so beautiful. Not as pretty as the Bahamas, but just the same, it is beautiful! I have to admit the island itself is pretty, but not beautiful and tropical like most people say it is. There is lava rock EVERYWHERE, but through all of the rock there is beauty everywhere. I have to say our campus is the best place I've seen yet on the island : ) Anyway, when we were driving back I saw the sign "YWAM University" and I said to myself, " Yes! We are finally home!" And then I stopped myself and thought how weird it was to think that. I've only been here for two days and I'm already calling this place home. I love it!

I Love YWAM

2011-04-08T15:25:00.001-11:00

I love YWAM. I love this place!

This whole day has been busy and rough, but through it all there has been love! First of all, the poeple here are SO friendly and outgoing! They definitely make you feel welcome! Also our leaders and staff have been expressing so much love towards us today! At first I just thought they were being friendly, because that's what they are supposed to do. But no. These leaders truly and deeply love us and want to help us anyway they can. Every time they express it by showing it or telling us, I start crying. I don't know why I'm so emotional today, but then I realized it's because the love they are expressing to us, is Abba's love. Daddy is so excited for us to be here! And it makes me feel so special and honored that Abba would even love me.

Now that I'm here, I'm scared and excited! Scared because I have no idea what I'm going to do after the DTS, but excited because I know whatever it is, it's going to be amazing!

Well, I'm going to log out here and head to the prayer room and get me some Abba time :) Love all of y'all!

Aloha!

2011-04-07T20:57:00.012-11:00

Right now it's 9:17 pm Kona time, but I feel like it's 3:00 in the morning, which is the time back home! I can't believe I'm here! It's still a numb feeling, like I'm dreaming and soon I'll wake up and realize that all of this was too good to be true! But it's real. I'm here. I'm really, truly here. I never thought I would make it. It was a long journey, but it was worth it. :) I just don't want to get on a plane for a while! haha :)

I have met a lot of nice, friendly people including the staff of photogenX! Its weird to think I'm going to be here for three months. "sighh" I love that :)

So...when I was flying over Hawaii for the first time I screamed under my breath and giggled like a little girl! The water is so blue! Think of the brightest blue color you have ever seen and that's what it looks like :) The sand is black and the cliffs and mountains are breath taking! The weather here is perfect. I've been on a plane all day, but for some reason I got burnt on my left arm?

Anyway, we got to the YWAM base and pulled up and people started cheering and clapping and celebrating. I smiled real big and knew I was going to love it here :) Someone showed me to my room and it's a cute little room with four bunk beds. So that's 8 beds, with a very SMALL bathroom. And when I say small I mean SMALL! Like the size of my closet! On the table were gifts for us! My gift bag had a water bottle, orange, granola bar, coconut m&m's, a bag full of laundry soap, and candy!! How cute, right? I'm eating the lemonheads right now and OMG my favorite candy by far!!!! SO good! (that's a hint for y'all to send me some! lol)

Anywho, I'm just lying on my bottom bunk listening to Journey and hearing the little crickets outside chirping away! Our front door and windows are open, and it has finally cooled down in our room :)

I suppose I should close this up and say goodnight to all of y'all! I will be getting up at 6 since breakfast starts at 6:15! I love all of y'all! Goodnight!

Bad News

2011-04-05T02:59:00.000-11:00

Hello everyone! I'm afraid I have some bad news. : (

A couple weeks ago my laptop broke down. I thought I was going to have to buy a completely new laptop. Which was fine by me cause I was hoping to get a Mac! hehe :) But just this past week I found out my motherboard is fine I just need to get a new battery and charger for my laptop. Good news hu? Kind of, you see I'm leaving tomorrow night to drive to Atlanta with my family for my flight Thursday morning. If I don't get a charger or battery before tomorrow night I wont be bringing a laptop to YWAM with me. Which means I wont be posting on my blog to update you guys when I arrive and what the lord is doing in my life. But the worst part for me is I will be able to take pix, but I wont be able to post them on here or work on them on my Picasa! Which makes me extremely sad because for the past two weeks Ive been DIEING to work on my pix, but I haven't been able to. I can't imagine not working on my pix for another two weeks :( or a month.

Please be praying for me to trust God no matter what happens. Even if it comes down to the fact that I wont be bringing a laptop with me.

Love all of you guys! <3

2011-04-04T02:47:00.000-11:00

This morning the Lord gave me a vision of the beauty of His love for me, and it starts out like this:

I was standing before the lord. I looked at His hands which He held a blue ribbon. I watched as He slowly and gently wrapped the blue ribbon around both of my wrist. He didn't tie it like handcuffs on me. I could have gotten easily out of it but I didn't want to. Then He stepped a bit closer to me and he directed my hands to his chest and placed them on His heart. I felt His heart beating at a slow but brisk pace. Then I took a step closer and laid my head on His chest. He then wrapped His arms around me and placed His hand and His chin on my head. All was still and quite, but the beating of His heart.

In those several moments He expressed His love for me, not through Words but through His actions. I could have stayed in that silence forever. But soon after, He broke that silence by saying these words over and over again, in a soft husky voice. "Hannah, my child, I love you. I love you, (He kissed my forehead) I love you, (He kissed my cheek) I love you. (He kissed my lips) I love you so much." I closed my eyes as soon as I heard His voice. Then smiled, as I continually listened to His voice as He said the three most beautiful words.

I never imagined I would get a vision like that. It felt so real. It was real. It is real. Abba's love for us is breath taking, beautiful, elegant, powerful. But most of all real. It’s hard for us humans to grasp the reality that Abba loves us no matter what. It’s even harder for us to understand or even feel the depth of His love for us. But I'm pretty sure its the best thing in the world. Believe me when I say, He won’t ever stop expressing His loving for you. : ]

Thank you all!

2011-03-29T12:34:00.000-10:00

In 9 days I'm leaving for YWAM!

Just saying that makes me smile so big and giggle secertly underneath my breath. This is such a big step for me and for my life as well :) These last couple of months I have realized how much I am truly loved by everyone in my life. I feel loved, and blessed and because of that I am forever grateful. All of you supported me, prayed for me, donated things for me, encouraged me, befriended me, and loved me. It amazes me still, to this day how there are so many people who truly care about me and wants to support me any way they can!? What can I say? I feel loved!

So from the bottom of my heart I want to say thank you, each and everyone of yall! If it weren't for you guys, I wouldn't be going in the first place! I want to gladly announce that I have raised 4,000 dollars! :D That covers my dts training in Hawaii for 3 months! Now all I need is 5,000 for my outreach part. I know that's a lot of money but God is the one that wants me to go, so I know He will help me. :)

Bless you all from the bottom of my heart!

Lukewarm

2011-03-10T05:59:00.001-10:00

Last night I went to prayer night like I always do on Wednesday nights, and my good friend David was there. He started school at IHOP (International House of Prayer) in January, and he came down for spring break. Honestly it was so good to see him, I miss him a lot. But the reason I’m bringing up David, is when he spoke last night to share what the Lord has been sharing to him, it touched me as well. Well, maybe more like it shook me up, a lot!

" I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot. I wish you were either one or the other! So because you are lukewarm-neither hot nor cold-I am about to spit you out of my mouth."

Revelation 3:15-16

That was the verse David spoke to us and he began explaining what lukewarm, cold and hot looked like in our lives. I cant say word for word what David said. All I know, is it really made me think, and ask myself what was I? When your cold you have no relationship with the Father what so ever. Thats not me. When your hot, you have a deep relationship with the Father and you spend every moment with Him. Sadly thats not me. I realized I was lukewarm. It hurt like crazy when I realized It and I felt so guilty!

I love the lord with all of my heart, but I realized I took advantage of Him. I knew that if I didnt spend a day with Him or maybe a\half a week it would be "ok." God loves me and Hes always there for me and when I call on Him, he comes in an instant ready to help me with whatever I need. I just want to say I am completly and utterly selfish for thinking that way. I hate myself for thinking that way. Am I that blind that stupid?!

Yes I go to church every sunday and I give Him my fullest and I go to Woriship nights and prayer nights not because I had to, because I wanted to. But when it came down to one on one time with Him I slacked big time in that area. Yes I talk to Him on a daily basis but that close time u have with God when you pull out your bible and journal and just talk to Him and read His word. I did that very little and when i did it, I did it for like 30 min. or an hour. Yes i've been busy with YWAM but not THAT busy where I have no time to spend with God. I have been selfish, and taking advantage of Him. All I can say is I am so sorry Abba!!

My God Has been there for me through thick and thin. He wanted nothing in return but to be with me. When I called on Him, He came. When I asked Him to heal this, He healed it. When I needed a shoulder to cry on He was there. He was always there. He never stopped expressing his love for me. He always encouraged me. He never gave up on me. People have left my life, they come and go. But God has never left me, and because of that He deserves every part of me.

I know there is more than this some what close relationship I have with God now. I know there is a more deep more passionate love with my Father. Now is my time to run after Him and not stop and take a breath. Because when I do, that is when satan comes in and turns my head away from God. Honestly Im sick of the way I've been treating God lately. He doesnt deserve it. He deserves so much more. I have given Him my life but I havent given it all to Him. So today im going to take that step and run after Him. Im going to spoil Him rotten. : ) lol

Dream Wisher

2011-03-08T05:48:00.007-10:00

I See Emerald

2011-03-07T16:30:00.003-10:00

Forgotten How to Have Fun

2011-02-10T15:36:00.001-10:00

For this past month Ive missed something very special in my relationship with Abba. For the longest time I didnt know what it was. Until this afternoon I was driving home from work, and this great song started playing on 98.9, and I asked God a question. " God, why is it that when I listen to non christian music I get so happy, but when I listen to christian music I dont." Then the Lord spoke to me and said, " Because your so serious all the time with me; you try to hard." Then "bam" my eyes were open and I understood completly by what He meant by that.

Whenever I turn on my Jesus Culture, Hillsong, or Rick Pino. I get into this mood were I try so hard to focus on God, and talk about serious things and pray hard about everything that is worrying me. Honestly doing that everyday constantly wears my down, and I started dreading those moments I would have with God. All this time I had forgotten to add one more thing in my relationship with Him. And it was this; to have fun, and loosen up a bit. :)

Its ok to be serious with God, infact there are many times when being serious is needed. I had just forgotten that Abba can be silly and sometimes just wants to have some fun with me. I know thats really sad. Who would forget that God is a loving and a goofy father?! But this season in my life has placed me in such a serious mood, I forget to lighten up a bit and just push all my worries aside for a while. Its ok to have fun with Abba! Yes there are times to be serious with our God, but other times we need to have fun!

I had forgotten all the good times I had with Abba. The times when He would tease with me or joke around. The time He deticated the song "Hero by Enrique Iglesias" to me. The times we would laugh to togather and smile. I was so caught up in my life and my worries I had forgotten how to have fun with God.

But tonight changes everything. From this point on, Im having fun with my daddy. :)

Pink

2011-01-28T15:25:00.001-10:00

Pink by Visualaddiction101 on Polyvore.com

Dream Watcher

2011-01-28T15:01:00.001-10:00

Dream Watcher by Visualaddiction101 on Polyvore.com

My Worries

2011-01-11T04:57:00.001-10:00

In 3 months I'm leaving for YWAM in Kona Hawaii. I'm afraid, overwelmed, excited, but most of all, I wish I knew someone that was going this year to the photogenix. It makes me nervous Ive never been out of the country without one of my family members around and I haven't even been on a rd trip out of the state without my family with me. Of course I'm excited! Its just the fear of getting on 3 different plans by myself to get to Hawaii and then once I'm there I'm on a island not knowing anyone there, on my own. Ive only been out of the country once when i was 16 and it was a creepy and complicated experience just by going through security and getting on the plane. I know the Lord will be with me and i trust him but I doubt I will stay strong through this time of just getting there.

Then theres everything I have do before I leave in 3 months. I have to go to the doc. to figure what I'm allergic to that's making me so sick everyday. I have to get my new glasses and contacts to that I may see over there. I have to write my support letter. I need to get a good bright suitcase. I need to make sure my jaw piece is working in good condition before I leave. I need to raise all the money I need for YWAM.
Its not that many things but its something that bugs me to the core.

Even though I'm afraid and overwhelmed. I know my God, and I know He is there for me always. I know He has everything in His hands, like He always Has in the beginning. I'm sure everything will turn out just fine, who knows, maybe one of my parents will get to ride down there with me. :) :) God has taken me this far, I should learn to trust Him with everything else.

Why Am I Afraid?

2011-01-06T04:28:00.000-10:00

A while ago I was convicted of watching "The Passion of the Christ." And to this day I still have not watched it, because I am afraid. Why am I afraid? I don't know why, but that I don't want to see our God being beaten to death getting his flesh torn off of his body. But the Lord did tell me to watch it and to not close my eyes when a sad or scary part would come on. He told me He wants me to know how much He really does love me. :\

I don't know why I struggle so much about if He loves me or not. He has blessed me enough to the point where I should know He loves me deeply, but I struggle with that a lot. I know He loves me, but then again I don't understand why He would love me, why he would lay his life to save me. Why He is always forgiving and is always there saying, " its ok Hannah, I still love you." It may always be a mystery to me, but I'd like to know.

Maybe this is the movie to show me how much he does love me, but why am I afraid then? Why am I not jumping through hoops and bounds to push that play button on and watch it? I don't know why, but that I am afraid and i am so sick of being afraid! my whole childhood I was afraid of everything and now I'm grown up and most of my fear has been washed away. But why does this movie make me afraid?

I don't know why, but I'm going to watch it. hopefully soon ill get the guts to push that play button.

I Got Accepted!!!

2010-12-21T14:44:00.000-10:00

For some reason I always knew that I would be accepted into ywam in Kona Hawaii. I'm not trying to sound conceited in anyway, I'm just honestly telling you that is where i felt the lord wanted me to be.

Today I clicked on my Email and of course i got tons of spam but right in the middle of it I saw the DTS email and i started reading it.. "Dear Hannah, We are pleased to inform you that you have been..." before I read that 8 letter word I know I had been accepted and I was right. I was accepted into Photogenix DTS in Kona Hawaii. Seeing that right before my eyes made my eyes sparkle and a smile spread across my face :)

I didn't Cry or scream or freak out like I thought I would. It was like I already knew and i was prepared for it, or maybe it just hasn't set in yet.. All I know is I'm so happy and blessed by God. I feel so honored that He would pick me to join the photogenix team for 6 months. That I would live in the most beautiful place in the world. :)

He has given me everything. So from this day forward I give him everything that I still hold dear in my life. Everything that i have and that I am is His. Praise be to the God most high!

Remembering The Past

2010-11-07T10:08:00.000-10:00

Learning to let go of your past is the hardest thing to do, its with you forever, reminding you the moments you had together, and remembering the pain and suffering that goes along with it. You want to let go, move on with life but it still seems to always be behind you. So that when you look back, you'll see it all, and remember every memory you had together.

We were so close, we were best friends forever, but why did we have to fall in love. What was it that made me fall in love with you. Why did everything crumble and fall? Yet as I say every question i know every answer to them. There was a time, when I felt alone and the whole world covered my soul, and depression sunk in. But I am healed from the past, everything that was broken, is now put back together. Though some of the peaces may be cracked just a little, I can move on in life with a smile on my face, for I have forgiven u.

I know we have gone our own separate ways, but there are days when i think of you and pray to God that maybe one day you'll give everything to Him and your life will change radically before your eyes. Maybe one day ill see u again on stage in a giant church or in the streets sharing the gospel. You have a gift, Ive always seen it in you. The Lord will use u in mightily ways; but He can only do that if you let go of the world completely and run after Him.

Looking Through A New Mirrow

2010-11-05T15:34:00.001-10:00

Life as we know it, changes before our eyes everyday

Im 19 years old and my life before my eyes has changed rapidly. I remember last year how afraid I was of growing up, of getting in a relationship with a guy I liked very much, and how afraid I was of living life. I was afraid, of doing new things; things that were not in my comfort zone.

But look at me now! I can honestly say I am not the same girl I was last year. I have gone through so much this year that has made me the person I am today. If I didnt go though all the persuction I went through, I wouldnt be this strong or confident in myself. God has strengthened my weakness and I am forever thankful.

The Awe Factor

2010-08-27T13:45:00.003-11:00

I've recently have been reading this book called "Crazy Love" by Francis Chan. Im only on the first chapter and it has already made me fallen back in love with my Creator. I have read many books on God's love. But this book puts a whole dif. spin on things. I think everyone should read this book! And if you start to read it, don't rush through it. take it one chapter or one page at a time. and really think about what hes talking about.

The one thing that still amazes is the fact that earth (our home) is a speck of dust in the milky way. Literally!!
Yet God created every little detail on earth, and made it look so beautiful. He created something beautiful in a speck of dust. And the most amazing thing is He loves us so much! It amazes me at how much God cares for me, for all of us. I hope im making since, if not watch the video down below. It might explain a bit better than I.
">

Taking The First Baby Step

2010-08-16T04:32:00.001-11:00

For a while I have had a strange desire to play the guitar, I have no idea how to play. But Ive always wanted to learn, but now the desire is stronger. So i have decided that I'm going to teach myself how to play. If Justin Mcmillion and Brett Morton can teach themselves, I can teach myself as well (: My dad has this "How to guide" on guitar on a DVD. so today I'm going to see what I can do. (: Wish me luck!

Getting a Secound Chance

2010-08-12T17:24:00.000-11:00

I got a picture of me standing before God and I didn't embrace Him like I would in the past. I just had this guilty expression on my face with my head facing the ground. Now and then I would look up sheepishly up at Him, waiting for what He was going to do. To my surprise, He quickly dropped to His knees and grabbed hold of me and pulled me into one of the happiest hugs He Has ever given me. He had tears streaming down His face, and a smile so big it made His cheeks turn red. He whispered in my ear and said this phrase over and over again, "I've missed you so much...I've missed you so much Hannah." I was completely shocked and honored and I felt so blessed.

Then I got a picture of God taking my hand, showing me things that I had missed while I was gone. He was like a little boy so excited to see my reaction when I saw things that I have never seen before. He would tell me to go ahead and "ride this" or "go see that," but all I wanted was for His hand to be in mine, because right then and there, I realized how much He missed me.

I got this vision just last night, the same night I got the letter from Justin. The same night I decided that I too could get a secound chance with God. I have felt so distant from God that it scared me. But last night I opened up my heart to Him and he has changed my heart for the better. Again, God's love never fails. :)

Your Love Never Fails

2010-08-10T18:01:00.000-11:00

For so long I would cry when I thought about Justin. I use to sit in my bed and just cover my face with my hands and bawl out into tears. but now I seem to never cry. My emotions are blank, I guess I am still hurting from everything, I have forgiven him, and i will never stop loving him. He has a special place in my heart. I am still in love with him. But I am still so hurt, I miss him, but Im scared to ever try to talk to him. I know now is not the time to talk to him because he has a lot of growing up to do and so do I. I feel like I have become distant with God. I love him, but I use to have this power and excitement when I ever thought about God. but now its just dieing down. it scares me so much, because I want God to be my life not just part of it.

So today I decide to check my gmail, which I never do, but I did. And i found a message from a long lost friend. (im sure you can figure it out) I was completely shocked and nervous. I thought he has accidentally sent it to me. But he didnt, he meant to send it to me. The message was very long, but I didnt want it to end. I wanted to cry, but I didn't. I do have hope, but its not much. I want to respond back, but I know I need to be silent.

I have to say through all if this, Gods unending love changed my heart for the better. I use to hate Justin. I did. He broke my heart and said things i will never forget, but then the lord changed my heart and after one night of being prayed for, I started to love him again. I hope with all of my heart that before I leave for YWAM I will see him one last time. God's love never fails to amaze me. I love you Daddy.

Modeling

2010-08-05T07:25:00.000-11:00

Photo Shoot

2010-07-02T03:24:00.002-11:00

Fun photo shoot with my friend Gloria. I completely designed and set-up these shots, including makeup, clothing, props and lighting. In the bottom left picture it was completely dark outside and inside had little lighting. Look how the new speedlight works in this photo.

Light of Salvation/Desperation Band

2010-06-28T13:46:00.006-11:00

Do you ever have those random moments when something from your past hurts? And it all comes crumbling down? I had one of those moments today, and I was hurting so much I just wanted to earse my past.

But then I ran into this song on youtube, and it surprisingly brightened my whole day. Its amazing what the power of music can do. I wanted to share it with yall. Maybe it could brighten your day as well! (:

Sorry!!

2010-06-25T11:55:00.001-11:00

I'm sorry I haven't posted pix yet! taking pix with a speedlight is rather hard for me. I like to put my best photos on here, and I haven't taken that many good shots with it. So, I'm still practicing. (: But here are a few photos that I took with my speedlight, that I liked. Enjoy!

I also have good news! I may be getting a new lens! One of my mom's friends is selling it for $75, and its a Sigma 70-300mm zoom lens. ( A telephoto lens to be exact) I'm like 99% sure I'm gonna get it, but I want to use it and make sure I like it. So I'm extremely excited! Ive been wanting a new lens! The Lord has been providing me with so many things, and I am so blessed. :]

Graduation Present

2010-06-07T18:02:00.000-11:00

So I know its been a long time since Ive posted on here, but now that Ive graduated Ive been real busy. It feels good to be done with school! Now I'm working hard saving up money for YWAM, I don't know if I'm going to go to the one in Hawaii, but I will be going to a YWAM base, which ever one it may be.

But the reason why I wanted to make a post on my blog is cause today I got the BEST graduation present from my Uncle and Aunt. They gave me a Canon Speedlight 430EX 2 for my Cannon SLR! I am so happy and excited that I got another gadget for my camera. I cant wait for the batteries to charge so that I can start playing with it! :D Be on the look out for new posted pix!

Embracing My Future

2010-05-21T19:15:00.003-11:00

Tomorrow is the big day!!! I cant believe its just around the corner. =)
All night long I've been working on my display table, and going to graduation rehearsal. Then Watching baby movies of me, with my family. Now I'm just sitting here on my bed, cross legged, simple amazed that God could create something beautiful, through me.

I look around my room, looking for something. Then my eyes land on the roses still hanging on the wall, and my heart starts to hurt, and tears come to my eyes. I wish with all of my heart, Justin Kyle was here with me. I wish that when I get up on that stage i could look out into the crowd, and see his grin, and his eyes smiling up at me.

But I don't want to make this a sad moment, because I really am so happy. = ]
I never thought I would be excited when this day would come. since the beginning of last year I dreaded this season in my life, but now, I'm embracing it! I know that this is just the beginning of my life, and i know I'll have many bumps along the road. But when you go through something like I did through my child hood, you feel like you can concur the world! And that's just what I feel like right now, that anything is possible.

"The Lord will work out his plans for my life-for his faithful love, O Lord, endures forever."
Psalm 138:8

Only 19 More Days!!!

2010-05-13T16:28:00.000-11:00

I'm 19 years old now, and in 19 days Ill be graduating. Its such an exciting and such a scary thought. I never thought that I would be ready to grow up, but now I am. I'm so ready! Ands its all because of God. (: I can honestly say when I walk up those steps to get my diploma, ill def. have tears rolling down my cheeks. I'm just so happy that I'm finally here, and ready to be an adult. I finally made it! Thank you daddy. (:

I am sad, that my best friend isn't here to celebrate it with me. I do admit I miss him. I don't know were he went. But hes def. not were I think he is. I feel so weird graduating without him by my side. This whole thing about me graduating was such a big thing between us. But now that he is gone from my life, part of me wishes he was here to celebrate it with me.

My Jewelry

2010-05-06T15:50:00.000-11:00

I took these photos in my room on my dirty table, (haha as yall can tell) and if yall would like to see more photos, check them out on facebook.

Prom Pix (Gloria & Deven)

2010-04-29T04:42:00.001-11:00

______________________________________

To be continued.....

Prom Pix (Caris & Carolyn)

2010-04-29T04:37:00.000-11:00

Prom Pix (Lexie & Elliot)

2010-04-26T14:59:00.000-11:00

_____________________________________________

Prom Pix Continued...

2010-04-22T14:49:00.002-11:00

The End...

If you would like to see more pix of these prom pix, check them out on my Facebook!

My Thoughts of the Day

2010-04-12T12:20:00.029-11:00

I don't know what to say, I don't know what do anymore. The only thing I can do is walk forward. Losing my best friend, hurts so much. I know he doesn't care about me anymore. So I know I just have to keep moving forward, no matter how much it hurts.

I'm at the point, where I don't care what this world thinks of me anymore. All I care about is what God thinks of me. I have no idea what the lord has planned for my life. but I do know one thing, I'm going to try my hardest to go after Him, with all of my heart. Yea, there will be times when things will get in my way, and I will have to fight my way through them. But with God on my side, its worth it.

I wish he knew. I wish he understood why. Maybe he will one day. Maybe one day he'll look back and smile and say, "she was a great best friend." If I had to go back and change everything, I wouldn't. I'm glad he was my best friend. I learned so much, through our friendship.

I'm graduating in a month, and its the scariest thing alive. I have no clue what I'm going to do with my life. But I do have an idea, and it excites me! Who knows, maybe in a year i'll be at YWAM in Hawaii, or maybe Ill be traveling the world doing missionary work. As long as my daddy(God)is by my side, ill be happy.

Icrave for Him

2010-04-06T09:49:00.010-11:00

Last year around in the Fall, a friend of mine; Kris Dillard. Asked me to create a graphic design photo, for him. The one he loves the best, is the photo above.

The main word in every photo that pops out, is the word "icrave." All the other words, support the word in the middle. So I hope the pix speak for itself.

I personally enjoyed creating these photos. Once I made the first one, I started going crazy, and making different kinds.

I created all of these photos on Picnik. Then I would take them to my Photo Shop Adobe Elements 7 and change it up a little bit. The sad part is, I don't remember how I made them look like this.

If your interested, I have 2 links of Kris Dillard's music posted on the the top right corner of my blog. Check him out! I love his music!

Personally I don't have a favorite in any of these photos. But if you do! leave me a comment and let me know! thanks so much!

Fireworks!

2010-03-23T17:10:00.013-11:00

I created these photos on Picnik! it only took me about 30 min. to make all of them. How did I make the Im? I have no idea. lol But I sure did have fun making them! I enjoy a lot making art out of photography! its something that I absolutely LOVE!

My mom thinks these photos are weird. But I think there cool looking! I don't know, maybe I'm just weird like that.

I absolutely love doing this kind of thing! I would love to get the whole photoshop deal! I'm starting to think i like Graphic Designing more than photography (:

I'm still not sure which one is my favorite. I think the last one is my favorite.

Which one is your favorite?

Or do you guys agree with my mom?

Rainbows

2010-03-23T06:14:00.008-11:00

I have this large diamond (its not real) and it hangs on a string, that is tied to the top of my window. And every morning, when the sun hits it, tiny rainbows cover my room.

This morning I had an idea. I decided to place objects underneath the rainbows. To see what affect I would get. It didn't work to well. Most of them were all blurry.

But these worked well and for some reason these are my favorite photos out of all the other ones I took.

If you like them. Or have any comments to say about these photos! Please let me know! I would love to hear your opion!

Praise God!

2010-03-22T08:13:00.003-11:00

Wow! The past week, you all know how much pain I was in last Monday, right? Well since that Monday it has been slowly decreasing! :D I'm just fully amazed at how amazing God is! And I'm realizing how powerful prayer can be! And I'm saying that, cause last week there were so many people that told they were praying for me! And When we all get together and pray, it really works!

Now I hate to say, Saturday afternoon I helped my mom bring my new vanity up to my room. Which put a lot of strain on my back, and has brought some of the pain back on my body. But besides that, I'm really happy, because I know one day I'm going to be healed! And I'm going to stay positive! All who are still praying for me, keep praying for me!

Thank You All

2010-03-16T17:29:00.003-11:00

So, I just wanted to say thank you all for praying for me! Today, I was in very little pain. I didn't do much today, so that may have helped my back as well. This morning I put the heating pad on my back and neck.. and kept it there while I did school. Then when I finished school. I got up, and it felt reallyyyyy tight! So I stretched my body out, and the only active thing I did today was go downtown and take pix! I am SO thankful to the Lord, for blessing me today. I am a little nervous at how my back is going to be tomorrow, since tomorrow Im going to be active a lot and busy. But like i said, Im just going to take it one day at a time. So for today, thank you all for praying!

What it means to Woriship God

2010-03-16T04:50:00.004-11:00

Getting Prayer for My Back

2010-03-16T03:28:00.005-11:00

Yesterday when I went to work. Everything I did, evening mopping the floor was painful. When I was getting in my car to leave, my good friend Justin texts me saying he could give me a ride to church tonight. So when he and I got to church I signed up to get prayer for my back and my neck. When they started to pray for me. I felt nothing. My back was even getting worse by just sitting in the chair. They encouraged me to keep praying over it, and be positive When they said that.. I started to cry, cause I realized i wasn't going to be healed tonight. When I left and went in the worship area.. I went at the front and burst into tears. I was sobbing like a baby! I was expecting to go get prayer and be healed. But I wasn't and that was so frustrating for me! I sat there on floor looking around, seeing how happy everyone was, screaming out the name of Jesus, dancing there butts off before the Lord. but I just sat there on the floor with tears in my eyes.

Then I got mad. Not at God, but at Satan! I knew what he was trying to do to me! He was trying to stop me from dancing! Then I got to my feet and started to dance, just to prove him wrong. I didn't care if people thought I was weird. I needed to do it. When I stopped to catch my breath, I couldn't feel any pain in my back or neck what so ever! Then my tears stopped and a smile spread over my face. I couldnt belive it! I was free from pain! I started to laugh and shouted "thank you Jesus" in the room. I danced harder praising God. when the worshiped stopped I sat there on the floor and the pain came back over me. And of course I started to cry, cause I didn't want to go back home and be in pain. I was scared! My friend Justin, came over and prayed for me. The pain didn't go away, but the tears stopped and i felt more at peace. :)

Even though I wasn't healed last night. I'm ok with it. cause Im not going to be defeated. And I'm not going to stop dancing just because my back hurts. I'm going to dance like a warrior and fight it off of me. I know, one day I'm going to be healed. Last night was not my time yet. So, until I am healed, I'm going to keep dancing and praise my daddy (God) for everything!

Love you Jesus :) <3

Im so Sick of this Pain!

2010-03-15T08:42:00.004-11:00

My back is in so much pain. Where now its scaring me. I feel the pain now. on the right side of my head and on the top of my arms. I feel like its spreading. Ive been working out and jogging, but it hasn't taken the pain away. I just want to be healed and not deal with this anymore. I start to cry when I talk about my back to someone. cause it hurts so much. Ill sit down and be in so much pain. tears will come to my eyes. I cant even lay down and turn my head without being in pain. I'm so sick of this all! I hate the chiropractor so much! it hurts when he pops my neck and back. I don't want to go.. but now.. its getting to the point where I want to go. But now I cant cause we cant afford it. God... please help me. I cant do this anymore.

Broken Glass

2010-03-15T07:55:00.002-11:00

Photo of the Day

2010-03-15T07:47:00.001-11:00

I like this photo a lot. I don't really know how I was able to make it look like this. But I LOVE the results! haha It almost looks like cloth tied in a not. Let me know what it looks like to you guys! I would love to know! :)

Lovely Faces

2010-03-09T10:54:00.008-11:00

These two beautiful girls, I know very well. I enjoyed taking pix of them. (:

Let me know what you guys think. The last photo is a little blurry and some of them are a little over exposed. If you guys find anything else wrong with them. Let me know! thanks so much!

His Love For Us

2010-03-04T16:39:00.006-11:00

Some days, its hard. Some days I feel alone, and some days I cant seem to hear the voice of the Lord. The past couple of weeks, its been tough. Things in my life, has either overwhelmed me, distressed me, sadden me, or has just made me depressed. But what has been making me most depressed at the moment, is that a friend of mine, that was like an older sister to me. Was killed in a car accident on February the 28th. I never thought that something like this would ever happen to her. To think that she is gone and that I will never see her again makes my heart drop. There are moments in the middle of the day, were I will remember a memory I had with her, and tears will come to my eyes. But I have to remind myself, that she is in heaven with Daddy. Where one day I will see her again.
To think that she is in heaven right now, makes me so jealous, I wish I could be in her shoes. I would LOVE to be with my daddy right now.

Another thing that i have been struggling with, is knowing that God loves me no matter what I do. I've been struggling a lot with that lately. But just this morning a good friend of mine, sent me a message that made me so happy reading it. its exactly what I needed to hear. Down below is the message he sent me.

"That's his amazing love Hannah! It is hard to understand sometimes. God doesn't just love us before we sin and after we say we're sorry. He loves us even in the midst of our flesh... You didn't have to ask Jesus to forgive you before he showed his affection to you. He forgave you for that long ago.. When he looks down on you, he sees his beloved child.. You are clothed in his righteousness... His love is over, it is underneath, it's inside, and it's in between! It's nothing you do that he pours his heart and himself out to you! It's his never ending and constant love for you!"

Theres this song called Inheritance, and in the middle of the song a guy named Graham Cooke starts speaking. He starts talking about Gods love to you. I encourage everyone to listen to it! And if you would like to listen to it, check it out in my music on my blog.

Red Bird

2010-02-23T16:26:00.012-11:00

A couple days ago I was laying in my hammock, and something caught my eye underneath our grill. At first I thought it was a red hat, but then I realized it was a Cardinal!

I moved the grill to get a closer look at it. It was so beautiful and its feathers were so soft, but it was also dead. I don't know how it died. because there was no cuts on its body and he didn't smell bad at all. The only thing I could think of, is that he some how broke his neck and instantly died. How did he get underneath the grill? I have no idea.

Using My Imagination

2010-02-09T05:27:00.006-11:00

Q: What were your ideas before you began this shoot?

A: During class my mind started racing with ideas… new ideas and ideas that were all ready stuck in my head that just hadn’t been played out yet. So once class was over, I started gathering props. Two lamps, a bed stand, a purple blanket, my camera, and my tripod. One thing that I couldn’t find was a black bed sheet. My idea was to hang the black bed sheet in a corner of my room. I wanted to practice putting the lights behind the bed sheet to see if you could see any light appearing through the black cloth, and I also wanted to hang lights in dif, areas but I didn’t have the main ingredient that I wanted for my “recipe.” And that was the black bed sheet. Since I didn’t have that, I decided to use the next darkest sheet we owned. Well, all we do have is white sheets, so I decided to use my dark purple bed blanket. It’s too heavy to hang on the wall, so I decided to drape it around the bed stand and put dif. Lightings on the bed stand.

Q: What are your feelings and thoughts now that the shoot is over?

A:Over all, I feel ok with what I took. Most of my pix, I like the affect it has in each pix. I liked the fact that I didn’t have to edit much, in my pix. I only darkened a little in Picasa, but besides that, everything else was natural. I still want to take some photos with a black bed sheet hanging on the wall. But I guess that will be for another time J Another thing that was annoyed with is that even though I used a tripod so of my pix I took came out crocked. Maybe it was the carpet, giving it off balance?

Q:What did God Teach you?
A: God taught me that, nothing is impossible through him. I had all these ideas running through my head, which I thought; I couldn’t really do, since I’m not that great with my camera anyway. But he showed me, that if I just try, I can succeed. Even though I didn’t get exactly what I wanted through my pictures. I did take the first step in believing in myself and in God.

Q: Describe your results and reflect on your creative process.

A: I took many dif. Pix of random objects, my sister, me, lighting, backdrops, in that corner. Most of them were blurry. Or the shadows that were behind them were distracting me, so this photo I think is the best. It’s clean, cut, nothing distracting. I worked on this set, for about 4 hours. Even though I was done for the night, I’m not finished with it. This was just step one.

Photo Of The Day

2010-02-05T07:39:00.003-11:00

A Secret Life

2010-02-04T06:03:00.007-11:00

These photos...I created. And thats all I'm going to say.. (:

Growing Up

2010-02-02T17:40:00.003-11:00

I am so Happy for this new year! I know this year is a new season for me and I am so excited for what the Lord has in store for me. I just LOVE thinking about it!
I would have never guessed in a million years that I would be feeling this way! I feel so confident in God and in myself. I'm not afraid of the World anymore. I'm ready to explore the world; and that's what I plain on doing :)

Photo Of The Day

2010-01-28T06:00:00.003-11:00

Lovely

2010-01-28T05:35:00.005-11:00

3) This was a 3 step process

1) The First pix. I took with my canon rebel SLR camera. Then edited it on Picasa. When I was done, I then downloaded it on Picnik.

2) the second pix. was fully created on Picnik. I don't remember all the steps I used to make it look like it does now, but I do remember some steps. I used the Adjustable Threshold, HSL Filter, Matte, and the waterfall button.

3) The third pix was also fully created on Picnik. I adjusted the colors to stand out, a little more. I also added the Cross Process button on Picnik.

Photo Of The Day

2010-01-27T06:45:00.002-11:00

I really don't know what to call this photo. I created it just 5 min. ago. on Picnik. To me, it looks like a bright blue star.

Blue leaf Purple grass

2010-01-26T09:22:00.003-11:00

One thing that attracts me in photography, is color. I love it in my pix. As you can tell most of my pix have a bunch of colors in them. I enjoy changing the look to wacky colors, that you would never really see in real life.

Washington DC

2010-01-26T06:03:00.004-11:00

A couple years ago, I went to a trip to Washington DC. Great trip, and i also got some great photos. I created these photos about 2 or 3 years ago. These are the first photos I created in photoshop. I found these two photos on my computer, and decided to share them with everyone out there.

Coming In Closer

2010-01-26T05:43:00.005-11:00

cats Paw

horse hair stuck on a bob wire fence

this is my knee, took this pix during Kingdom Culture

Ellie's Hand (Kingdom Culure)

I've learned that my camera is better at taking close up shots than far away shots. Or maybe its just me that doesn't know how to take far away shots. :)

Besides that little fact, I have gathered some photos together, that I have take over the past year. I loved the detail I captured in every photo. let me know what you think!

2010-01-26T04:30:00.009-11:00

I took this photo in the field in the back of my neighborhood.

Made on Pincik (photo above)

(Photo above)

This photo I took in the car. My family and i were heading up in the mountains. I took a quick snapshot from inside the car. This photo is also the only photo that I used a little in photoshop.

(Photo Above)
I took this photo in Willismburg

I love using Picnik on my photos... it allows me to add a little something of my Daddy in them.

I Am Silent

2010-01-25T15:03:00.008-11:00

Rest, come and rest.
I hear the wind blow, and the sound of water.
Its all around me. Protecting me. Loving me.
Its my peace and comfort.

Tonight the Lord is controlling my mouth.
I am silenced.
I can not speak and can not sing.
I am simply in silence.
Listening to the Holy Spirit's presence.
Moving upon and around me.
His spirit flows like a mighty river.
Breaking down every barrier, between us and God.
He sweeps us off our feet.
Touching us in ways, we can not imagine.

Rest, rest in me.
I hear those words , over and over in my head.
And willingly I obey

2010-01-25T07:46:00.006-11:00

In all four photos my best friend (Justin) is playing the guitar. I created all of these on Picnik. The only pix i took is the last one. The others, Justin took and I just created them the way they are now. I loved creating these Photos. It took me about an hour or an hour and a half to create each photo.

Trees

2010-01-25T07:23:00.011-11:00

These tree photos I took,with my Canon SLR camera. and then after I shot these Photos, I created them on my Photoshop Adobe Elements 7, Picsa, and Picnik.

Let me know what you like, or don't like about these photos. and let me know which one is your favorite. Each photo is numbered, so that is easier for you to tell me which one you don't like, or you do like.. :)

Light Pix

2010-01-12T10:39:00.011-11:00

(some pix are little over exposed, but I still like them)

Last sunday, my sister caris and my God sister Gloria and I were sitting in our dinning room.. and I noticed how the light coming through the windows was perfect. here are some pix I took. The pix are all on manual setting, and I didn't use a flash.

Hebrews 12:2

2009-12-18T13:53:00.008-11:00

My Daddy is Love.
He is Loving. He is Gentle. He is Kind. He is Patient.
My Daddy is Powerful.
He is Mighty. He is Strong. He is King.
He is as gentle as a lamb and as strong as a lion. :)
He knows my every thought, my every desire.
He guides my every step.
He wipes away every tear.
He is here for me, no matter how much I may fail.

I look into those eyes and place my head against his chest, hearing the rhythm of his heart beat to mine. I look into those deep blue eyes once more and in a sweet whisper, He says..."My heart beats for you."

Like my best friend, (Justin McMillion) said to me once... "God, Himself, is like raawwwrrrrr. His love is like whoa. His Eyes are like ahhhhhh and His Voice is like mmmmm."

Hebrews 12:2

The Gold Box

2009-11-24T16:20:00.013-11:00

Just a moment ago I was lying on my bed reading "YW God In Us" magazine when God showed me He was trying to get my attention. He was calling my name and taking my hand to show me that He wanted me to sit in his lap. With my eyes open, I saw that pix in my head. I had received visions like this before, and I knew God wanted me to close my eyes and focus on Him. So I did. I put my magazine away, shut my eyes and imagined God's eyes (for some reason I always see his eyes blue). A smile formed across my face, excited to hear what the Lord wanted to share with me.

Then my vision began like this:

I climbed into my Daddy's lap, reached up and wrapped my arms around His neck, hugging Him tight. Then I drew back and my Daddy kissed me on my nose. He smiled and His blue eyes twinkled. We sat there, just staring at each other, smiling. Then God spoke and said, "I missed you little one," and I replied, "I missed you too Daddy." I gave Him another hug and this time I just kept my arms around Him, lingering in His presence. As I drew back, I noticed that God was holding something in His hand. "Hold out your hands little one, I have something to give you." God said this to me, with a big grin on face. I cupped my hands ready to receive whatever He had for me. I was expecting to see gold dust appear in my hands (because that's what I usually get) but instead God placed a beautiful, tiny, wrapped present in the palm of my hand. The wrapping and the ribbon was pure gold with glitter covering it from top to bottom. It was beautiful! I sat there on His lap, curious if I was even supposed to open it. I didn't want to ruin its beauty. So I just sat there holding it as gentle as possible.

Then the Holy Spirit told me what this present was for and I understood its meaning. God said to me, "Don't unwrap this present until the time is right. Keep it safe with you and don't give it away, until the right guy comes along." I understood that He was talking about marriage. I smiled really big, so proud to carry something as beautiful as this, but then a thought popped into my head and immediately I asked the Lord, "Does that include kissing too?" He chuckled and smiled down at me. "Little one, when the time is right, you will know." He said that to me with such a funny expression on his face. (It makes me laugh, just thinking about it!) Then He said, "Well, lets just take a little peek." He took His finger and we peeked in through a tiny slit. Then POP! these tiny white and gold colored fireworks jumped out and streams of light sparkled everywhere. He closed it and grinned at me.

As I looked back down at the present, I wondered where I would put it. I looked around me and even looked to see if I had a good pocket to put it in. There didn't seem a safe place to put it. I looked back up into my Daddy's eyes, questioning where I should put it. Then He said,"Let me hold onto it." A huge smile went across my face, knowing that if He kept it, there was nothing that could hurt it. :) "When the right guy comes along, I will give it to you, to give to him."

All I could do was smile. Who knew this converstation would be one of those talks? Usually you have these with your Mom or Dad, but I got one from God. :) I just think that is so cool. :)

I FOUND MY SONG!! :D

2009-11-21T05:02:00.011-11:00

Ok, so there is this song that I have been trying to find. David Walker, he is my worship leader at Crossroads church, he plays this one certain song that gets me every time. It's a song that I can't stop smiling at. Its a song that makes me happy and it makes me want to dance and jump and cry out to God with all that's in me! When I hear this song.. it makes me go crazy! in a good way.. I just fall so much more deeper in love with my daddy, Jesus Christ. :)
so all that said, here is the song
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xj2T6_MU5oA
and if that link doesn't work go to youtube and type in "Jesus Culture 02 Burning Ones"
I have to say, David Walker sings it a lot better, but that's just my opion. :)

Something Cool I Found

2009-11-09T13:57:00.004-11:00

Don't love the worlds ways. Don't love the worlds goods. Love of the world, squeeses out love from the father. Practically everything that goes on in the world-wanting your own way, wanting everything for yourself, wanting to appear important has nothing to do with the father. It just isolates you from Him. The world and all its wanting, wanting is on the way out-but whoever does what God wants, is set for eternity. 1 John 2:15

I want to be at MOW!! :(

2009-11-05T12:07:00.002-11:00

Sooooo.. this is going to be totally random.... butttt... I want to be at MOW!!! :( :( my mom went, and so far. what I heard is that she got a big word that was said over her! thats awesome and all, but I am extremely jealous, mostly because she gets to see and SIT next to my best friend.
" sigh"...... I'm like literally going crazy over here... :) I'm hoping with alllll my heart that I get to go this Saturday night!!

Can we get through life?

2009-11-04T13:20:00.004-11:00

Life can be hard. it can be death gripping. It can be depressing. when your going through life, it always seems like the wind is always against you, pushing you back; hard. Yet we still move on. why? why do some of us, just keep going? because we know we can fight it. That no matter what comes your way. you can fight it. you don't look back, because that can throw you off balance. It makes you remember the past. And that hurts. So you just keep going. head down, body leaning forward. You hide all emotion, and just walk stone face through the wind. The wind never stops. So you have to keep going, because if you stop, the wind will knock you down. So you keep walking and walking. How long? how long can you walk through the wind? How long can you fight the wind on your own?

Then you see a man, walking beside you. You didn't notice that before, because you weren't looking. But now you do see him, because you were looking. For you were looking if there was any hope, that this wind could die down. He was there, the whole time. You didn't know, but he was there beside you shouting your name through the wind. You were so caught up, in life, you didn't notice, your name being called. You want to stop and listen to what he is saying to you, but your afraid that if you do, the wind will push you down. Now you are getting tired. So tired. How long can you fight this wind? Then the man comes close to your ear, and for a sec. you open your ears to Listen. "Not without me you can't." he whispers it so silently. You cock your head to the side, and you see the man, his arms stretched out toward you. But you are stubborn and full of pride. you look back down and concentrate more on yourself, as the wind pushes you harder. " I can do it!" you cry out. But deep down, your questioning if you can do it. Now your week and now your steps are slower...then you whisper... "I can't do this anymore." as soon as those words are out, the man scopes you up into his arms. You lean your head into his shoulder, and he whispers in your ear, "don't worry, I got you." And he takes you the rest of the way. out of the storm and into the sun.

The wind represents - Life and the struggles you face
The man represents - God

A Poem written by me

2009-10-31T11:15:00.006-11:00

Oh how I long

To feel that warm gentil breeze

Just the thought

Makes me buzz like a bee

The wind has changed its course

For it no longer blows north

It happened so fast

it flew away like a dove

I wish it could last

To the ends of love

A Vision that turned into a Praise Report

2009-10-29T11:20:00.005-11:00

Whenever I go to bed, I close my eyes and imagine myself on the beach with Jesus. Two nights ago..I did just that. I closed my eyes, snuggled into my pillow and let my mind imagine myself on the beach. This time I didn't see God beside me, but an angel. And this is where my vision started:

Angel - "Hello Hannah."
Me - "hey!"
Angel - "Follow Me." (he smiles and reaches his hand out for me to take it) When I take his hand, he turns me around, and instantly I see a beautiful field with a huge tree planted in the middle. When we pass the tree, instantly all the beauty is gone and all that is before me is this huge, old wooden bridge hanging loosely in the air by only a couple of worn ropes. Below the bridge there was nothing but complete darkness.

I knew the angel wanted me to cross it, so I took a deep breath and started taking one step at a time across the old bridge. I looked beside me and the angel was there looking straight ahead. I closed my eyes as I told myself I could do this and that there was nothing to be afraid of. Of course, I was trembling all over inside and out. I was scared to death! I knew if I made one mistake, I could fall over and into the black pit.

Then the Lord spoke to me in my heart, "Don't look down." Of course, as soon as I heard that I did look down. Then my body started to fall. I cried out, "God help me!" As soon as I said those words, the Lord rewound the whole sence from where I started walking on the bridge with the angel. This time when I walked across my eyes looked straight ahead. I then saw a tiny flicker of light that I didn't notice before. I wanted to know what that light was so I started focusing on that light. As I came closer, I relized that glowing light was my Daddy. He was smiling from ear to ear and his arms were stretched toward me. "Daddy!" I cried out. As soon as I started running toward him, my body changed into a 10 year-old girl. As my body crashed into his, I heard his familiar chuckle and felt his arms embrace me. I snuggled my head into his chest and smiled.

Then the Lord said to me, "Unless you turn and become like children, you will never enter the Kingdom of Heaven."

This vision helped me alot, because I have been having a hard time with school lately. I've been struggling in most of my classes and been behind in two. So there was alot of stress for me.

God was telling me that all I have to do is focus on Him and not on myself or everything I need to work on, but just take it one step at a time.

Now I am happy to say, I have caught up on ALL of my school work and my grades have improved! Praise God!

God's Creation

2009-10-27T03:19:00.008-11:00

when I got out of my car, I saw two tiny leaves laying there innocently against the warm pavement. For some reason those two leaves caught my attention..they aren't the must beautiful leaves you've ever seen. and there really isn't anything amazing about them. but when I took the pix and saw it on my LCD screen, it turned out great! and then God told me something. he said, I notice even the smallest things, such as these two leaves. and I can turn anything and anyone into a beautiful thing. Even if you feel like your nothing and your ugly, through the eyes me, you are beautiful. At that moment when I looked through the lens I felt like i was looking through God's eyes and seeing how beautiful those two leaves really are.

FACE PHOTOS!

2009-10-23T17:53:00.013-11:00

Top Pix (Caris) Taken at ( The Field)

Top Pix ( Elise) Taken at (Gloria's House)

Top Pix ( Ellie) Taken at (Kingdom Culture)

Top pix (Gloria) Taken at (my house)

Top Pix (Caris) Taken at (Beach)

Top pix ( Madison) Taken at (downtown)

Top pix ( Abby) Taken at (her house)

Top pix (Gloria) Taken at ( Field)

Top pix (caris) Taken at ( beach)

1 Corinthians 5: 6 - 7

2009-10-23T16:57:00.008-11:00

Its amazing at how involved you can into some crazy bad stuff. For me I always thought that being homeschooled was a protective environment. I mean, I've been homschooled all my life, and I never got into that stuff. But I realize now that I was wrong.

Just recently I found out what some of my homeschooled friends do get into that stuff. For ex. One friend I know, she's about 2 to 3 years younger than i am, and she told me she and her friend were drinking the other night. Another friend told me his really bad family history, and that he smokes and smokes other stuff. I was shocked to hear what they do for fun. Its either drinking, smoking, drugs, cussing, sneaking into rated R movies or over rated R moves. It makes me so sad, to hear my friends doing that kind of stuff.

It made me start thinking, how the people you hang out with can influence you in so many ways. cause you start thinking, "well my friends are doing it, so its not that bad." or "oh cool! that looks like fun!" This post really is just a statement, and a fact. and all we can do is pray and encourage our friends not to walk down that path.

1 Corinthians 5:6-7

"Don't you relize that if even one person goes on sinning, soon all will be affected? Remove this wicked person from among you so that you can stay pure."

OCEAN PHOTOS!

2009-10-22T16:19:00.019-11:00

Here are just SOME of some ocean pix I took at the beach last weekend. It was could weather outside, but it was worth taking thiese pix. I love the ocean! And I hope that one day, I'll get to live there!

Graphic Design Photos

2009-10-22T10:56:00.006-11:00

Created By HannahElizabethN

Created By HannahElizabethN

OK so here are some pix that I created! let me know what you guys think! :D

Graduation pix!

2009-10-22T06:04:00.009-11:00

In about 30 min. I'm about to go and take my graduation pix! Ya, I'm so excited!
I can't believe I'm graduating this year. I didn't think I could make it to my senior year, but I did! And that makes me so happy. I def. would not be able to go through school with my mom, helping me every step of the way, and not giving up on me. I struggled so much in school, its just shocking to me that I'm graduating! Now the next step in my life, is to figure out what I want to do with my life. I remember I was so scared growing up, I wanted to stay a little girl forever. And there is still part of me that feels that way. Yea, I am nervous living my life in the grown up world. I am just so glad I'm graduating with family and friends all around me, and Jesus by my side.

God is Love

2009-10-10T13:40:00.011-11:00

Created by HannahElizabethN

"Even though lately some things have not been going so great in my life, I somehow still learn to love life and enjoy everything God has given me."

This is what people should be saying everyday in there lives. Why do we always look on the negative things in life? why don't we look on the positive side in life? There are so many things that we can be thankful for, but we just don't stop and think.
This is one of my big problems. When something goes wrong in my life, I get so depressed and sad, and I think that I have the worst life ever! But that's not true, at all! I have a home, which in many places in the world, many people don't have a home. I have a family who loves me and cares about me. I have a best friend, who's always there to help me, and make me happy when I am sad. :) I have other friends who are always there to support me. I have a job. I have cloths. I could go on and on... but the most important thing I have is Jesus. :D Jesus, is always here. His spirit is with us, everyday in our lives. Even when something bad happens, God is not punishing us and he hasn't abandon us. I may not know why bad things happen in this world, but I do know that God is love. And through all pain, and guilt, and depression, and anger, there is God, and He is full of love. So next time, when something bad happens in your life; smile. Because no matter what, you are blessed. With an everlasting kiss from our God.

Living Life

2009-10-08T15:47:00.001-11:00

Did anyone tell you that life is hard?

Believe them, its true. Its amazing how one day you can be all happy and have a perfect day and then the next day feel horrible! At the moment I feel frustrated, scared, and discouraged.

Now that I think about it, my day hasn't really been all that bad. I think that alot of past memories went through my head today and its making me feel this way. Yea, school was hard, but everyone has one of this days. Yea, I found out today that I have back problems, but I should be lucky I'm not crippled. Yea, I have some memory loss, but I'm going to be healed from that soon. Yea, my best friend is mad at me, but at least (hopefully) not forever! Yea, I'm behind in my school work, but at least I'm not failing my grades. yea I worry to much, but at least I'm not a freak.

I know I shouldn't get caught up in all the worrying because God is here, beside me taking my hand. Telling me everything is going to be ok. :) He has always done that, and has never left my side. Thank you daddy SO much! I love you. :)

~Philippians 4:6~
"Don't worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need and thank Him for all he has done."

Photo God Blog

2009-09-30T17:12:00.000-11:00

Wow, my very first Blog! This is so exciting!
Ok first I would just like to say about what my blog is going to be about, and what I'll be using it for.
1. this Blog is going to be my Photo God Blog.. hahahaa if that even makes, since.. this will be my website for me to share my photography to everyone out there. I express myself through art in my pix. And I'd like to share it with you! Not only will I be showing off my pix... :) but that I will be blogging my walk with the Lord. Lately the Lord has been showing me things.. and I hate writing stuff down... so I have decided that i will type it. and what could be more better than on a blog?! :D